Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Tea on Tuesdays...

i'm honored that you decided to join me today for tea.
tea on tuesdays is something christi at greyumbrella is doing.
it's real life, your heart, sharing what is on your heart with others.
please feel free to join in as well.

i'd offer you a drink of coffee, sweet tea or some of reese's v8 juice, but we are headed out to katy to return a christmas gift.
since we'll be in the car for the hour trip, i'd love for you to join me so we can chat :)

i'd tell you that last night was rough. reese has a habit of waking up anywhere between 2-4 and coming to get in bed with us. no it's not every night, but more than we'd like. so we finally said enough is enough and decided that last night we'd take him back to his bed. it broke my heart to hear him scream "i just want to love you. i just want to love you momma." sweet love really does love that time in bed with us, and to be honest, he snuggles close. it was hard. after an hour of back and forth, up and down the stairs, i finally decided he just wanted to feel close to us, so i laid on the couch upstairs to finishing sleeping (he started all this at 4). about every 45 minutes, he'd say "momma??" just to make sure i was still there...sweet love. i'd tell you it broke my heart, but he is almost 4 and we can't be having this anymore...

i'd tell you that i'm training for my first 1/2 marathon, and you'd probably look at me and say "yeah right", but i am. and i will complete it. i gained more than the freshman 15...a whole lot more and i've got to do something about it. i've run two 5ks so far and my training started last week. i fell behind some and so i ran 4 miles last night. it took me an hour to do it, but i did it, and i tell you this.... i'm darn proud of myself. i felt last night that i could and can cross that finish line after running 13 miles. i will do it. and i will hear my dad cheering me on... because i truly believe no one would be more proud of me than him.

i'd tell you that houston and living here has been completely different than what i thought. i thought i'd hate it. in fact, about 18 months ago garrett and i swore we'd never live here. and here we are and I.LOVE.IT. period. we both desire to be back in west texas at some point...but for now, we love it here (me more than him since i don't have to worry about traffic in a morning commute). we really are content. and i think thats a good place to be.

i'd tell you that i don't feel i have anything interesting to blog about so i quit blogging and i'm ok with that. i may get tired of it after this post and you may not hear from me for another 5 months and that'll be ok too.

i'd tell you that i lost a friendship this year and honestly, it's been freeing. sometimes when you are in the midst of it all it is so hard to see or be thankful for. but now, after 6 months, i can truly say i am ok with this. i deal with far less drama and i have more time for my family because i am not consumed in another familys drama.

i'd tell you that i am "praying God's word" via thepoefam and i've already learned amazing things from it. God is speaking to me and he is speaking my language. i'd tell you that i am honestly trying to seek christ with my whole heart and so far this year, i feel christ, i see him in the everyday...and that feels good.

i'd tell you that i'd love you to come over, because even though i love houston, i miss my friends. its not easy to find and quickly make deep friendships.

i'd tell you my heart is full at all i've been blessed with and that i'm trying to remember that more...

i'd tell you we should do this more often. i'd hug your neck and tell you if i don't hear from me again, i'll be back next tuesday for tea :)


  1. Tiffany,
    So glad to hear from you! I don't know why I was having a hard time replying but I finally figured it out! :)
    Both of my boys slept in our bed at times. Many times. Many, many times. :) Tate quickly adjusted to his big boy bed when Cash was born but Cash is 4 and still comes climbing into our bed at 2 or 3 in the morning. Ok, sometimes it's 11 at night! :) But there is something so sweet and innocent and addicting about that tiny, warm body snuggling with you, telling you how much he loves you. Totally on the same page with you. :0
    I am so very proud of your running!! I know how hard it is to start and to stick to it and you are going to do a FABULOUS job in the 1/2!!
    I'll "see" you next Tuesday!

  2. Loved this post! Thank you for inviting me along for the ride. I miss your posts. I know the feeling of having nothing to blog about. Of thinking oh my life is just so boring. But last year I realized that everyday is filled with beautiful moments -- even the days that are hard. And I don't want to forget them and I want to celebrate them! Come on back, even if it's once a week.

    You will complete the 1/2 marathon and that is fantastic that you are trying. Keep it up, just for you. I cannot imagine how hard this transition is for you and Reese. houston is a great city and there are so many burbs. So glad you are happy. It always takes a little while to feel settled and content.

    Saying goodbye to a friendship is so hard. I did the same thing last year and it was heart-wrenching. But as you said, the drama is gone. I don't like drama and I needed to remove that part of my life. Sure there are times when I still think about her and pray for her, but we aren't talking on the phone/emailing like we used to and I am at such a piece with this decision even though making meaningful friendships is not easy.

    Have you read Crazy Love yet? I think you'd enjoy it.

    I look forward to our chat next week. Please come back and continue to share your life, struggles, successes and praises with us.